What THIS Is?

This is a life that has been steeped in fantasy from the beginning.  Sometimes the illusion  is grossly unveiled before it is complete.  Other times the illusion becomes a trap for years and years.

It’s just life, but life mixed with forgotten childhood memories, abuse, misuse and distrust.

It is a life that belongs to one that thought she was no one, me and on more than one occasion she decided she didn’t want it.

It is a life mixed with joy, reverence, love, peace and understanding.  I still live it.  I still am but sometimes, when Ria Ludy gets caught in fantasy the line is hard to find again.

These are her stories.  This is my life.